Time Flies

Eight months into 2012! Where did the time go?

Maybe the Doctor knows because I sure as heck don't.

Anyway, I decided back in January that this year was about change. For better or worse I was going to change. So far I've achived a few things.

I lost 20lbs -  I went from a size 14uk to a size 10uk. No mean feat considering I had no help, no motivation. I just decided that was it! 8 months into it I've slacked off on eating healthier a little and still maintained my weight. This is mostly due to the amount of exercise, 1.5 hours 4 to 5 days a week.

Continue with Bachelors Degree - first course with the Open University has been completed, I passed! And the second is due to start next month. I can't wait. The new course is Introduction to the Social Sciences. Sound fun.

Style Update - I've always conformed to what I felt comfortable in, and as a size 14uk I wore bland, black and baggy clothing. As I've lost the weight and gained a new confidence in my looks I started wanting color and clothes that fit. I've thrown out or sold 70% of what was in my wardrobe and started replacing things. I even started wearing skirts....

I've not worn skirts since I was in my 20's!

I can even cope with my legs showing now, which may sound silly but previously all my skirts were at least below the knee.

No Kids - Having miscarried when I was 19 I was terribly confused about wanting to have kids. I felt as a married woman you should, which is why at 19 I got pregnant by my first husband. However second marriage in and 8 years down the road, we still hadn't made a decision. It was something for the future and I was trying to hold out making a decision until I reached 70 (technology would catch up!). Faced with very close friends having a kid and my brother in law (his fiancee obviously, not him) it was something that I had to decide on. I held my niece and I felt nothing. I held my friends baby and I felt nothing. No urge, no wanting, no anything except the hope I wasn't about to get vomited on. So a discussion was had with my husband and we decided too much time, money and we don't understand why anyone would.

So there, I'm never having kids.

Suits me fine, I have to have time to myself. Otherwise I get very grumpy, I can't live without being alone for a while, a few days a week and I'm a very happy person! (cats do not factor into this, as they don't annoy me!)

What's next? Well, I'm thinking about attempting to stop letting other people try and define my life or what I like. I'm pretty happy with how things are going, sure I want to have a few million in the bank but until then, I'm going to sit back read a book and enjoy my life.

-Sabrina